So I'm back writing.
Saturday was a good day. I had fun at the beach with a few friends.. even though it was really windy and slightly cold. But yeah the waves were amazing and I just loved hanging on the beach when the sand isn't completely covered with people. after that I split up from the group, freshened up a little bit and went to see M. It was awkward through dinner but um we spoke a bit after and all the emotions and tears came out.. and I guess um.. it's really no one's fault, it's a mix of everyone's. I wasn't thoroughly convinced and it still hurt .. a lot. but after that night, I realized.. if there's anything I want in my life it's to have him back.. to give him a chance, at least. I believed him when he said he valued me and he would never screw me over. So now I'm giving myself a chance. To trust again.
Saturday night at F's was good.. I had a blast and I felt good. Not amazing, but good. It feels good to be back, new. Start all over again and this time I choose who and what stays in my life. But yeah.. like Sat night was definitely good.. I realized I don't need to please everyone and I don't need to be nice to everyone or try to fit in. Note to self: be yourself, be the person you are and have always been, and people would have to take you for that. And if they don't? They don't deserve to be in your life.
On a more positive note, though, I can't wait to go to Gold Coast on the 9th. It'll be great. :-)
