".. take a chance on you tonight. i'm lost in the music of lights. i don't wanna let go but i might.. if it's right.. tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight.."
- natalie bassingthwaighte (alive)
hey everyone. it's so funny how i've only been away for a couple days.. but SO MUCH has happened those few days. since my last post, i've caught up with two friends and also lost a friend i loved. it's funny.. how.. you think it's a new year.. and a new start. and you're back and all these people are reminding you of the past.. and bits of the past that are unknown to you start to unveil. it's like these secrets were never meant to be secrets, and whatever secrets are kept from last year don't feel much like the past.. but incoming news.
well, i met up with a friend one night.. who revealed something about another friend that I should've known long ago. and you know how it hits you so much harder when you get hurt by a close friend. the betrayal.. the pain.. it just comes as a shock to you and you find yourself not knowing how to react. but after a few hours i spent in tears and quite a few hours of verbal fighting, it occurred to me that it was time to let go. it still is a shock to me and i'm still not feeling very happy- especially with how i constantly feel like i just lost a best friend (which i did, really). but after calming down a little bit, it feels like a new start all over again.
funny how things turned out. i really didn't expect any of it. but then again, you always get something unexpected, don't you? it's a good thing.
other than that, though, the week's been really good. spent a lot of time with my family and i watched nadal at the oz open yesterday.. it was definitely an amazing experience. and i'm looking forward seeing F tomorrow and also my beach session and F's house party on saturday night.
until i write again.
xxx
