hey! my first indo class today. had to get up so early in the morning. hrhhss.
but anyway, yea. as i was saying.. had my first indo class today. indo as a 2nd language.
am thinking.. maybe it's too easy for me? but since i'm really bad at doing essays, indo as a 1st language might be too hard. so yea. dilemma.
i love you.. and i.. need you. nelly i love you I DO .. neeedd you. no matter what i do.. all i think about is you.. even when i'm with my boo.. you know i'm crazy over you.
okay, why am i singing?!?!?!?! LOL . OHHH. cuz it's called dilemma. yeaps, yeaps. hahaha. i get you now, tya.
havent trained since wednesday. and that wasnt even training!! and i havent ran for ages. that's why i'm getting fatter and fatter each day. the unhealthy kind of fat. haha. i miss mma! SO MUCH!!!! i miss the sweaty feeling after trainings.. and just.. yea. focusing on the bag.. and running to beat my goal. and stuff. and no matter how crap i feel, i'd feel so much better in mma. SO MUCH better!! even if i werent training! and of course trainings always cheer me up. i feel so good afterwards. haha. i love kickboxing. it changed me. haha. and i love myself when i'm happy. random.
i hate how new guys look at me like i'm a girl and wont fight me hard though. like.. just because i'm a girl, that doesnt mean you can slack with me, nor does it mean you have to soften all your punches. i didnt join the class to be treated that way.
and yea, since i'm SO bitter about love right now, i'm a fighter. not a lover.
and not boy-girl relationships kinda love. like.. any kind of love. just love in general. yea, i believe in love, but love's kinda sucky right now. you annoy me, love!! so yea. there you go. love, go to hell. haha. :P okay wtf is wrong with me today?! sorry, i just woke up. YES. this late in the afternoon. hahahahah.
ciao babes xoxo