a m n e s i a ''

*It's gonna take some time, to realize
But if you look inside, I'm sure you'll find
Over your shoulder you know that I told you
I'll always be pickin' you up when your down
So just turn around* drake bell

gawd!! i missed three trainings. THREE TRAININGS!!!
i missed saturday, monday and tuesday. which is today. lol.
HOW BAD CAN IT GET!?

hahaha migawd so funny
my bro has this calendar he showed me..
and it's like.. on my birthday.. he wrote my name and drew a pic of me. looking at the mirror. LOL. how funny is that?! nd i was like.. "haa??" and he was like.. "oh, coz you love looking at the mirror!!! so i drew you looking into a mirror!!" lol lol lol migawd.. haha

anyway.. *continued* yes, i missed THREE!!! i cant believe i missed three. i've never missed that many! it feels like being away from home.. like i havent returned home for so long!!! migawd it's so scary. coz mma's like my home.. and the people there's like my family.. and stuff? it seems weird not seeing them for so many days. how am i ever gonna be macho if i miss trainings like that!?!?! and if i'm not macho.. i'm not sexy..
and if i'm not sexy.. i'm not dwitya!!!!
lol hahaha so thickskinned

had today off coz i'm sick
and renee was asking me "from what?"
and i was like " amnesia."
and it's like.. why the hell did i say that!?
must think before i speak!! hmmph!!
i'm getting more stupid each day!!
like .. yesterday.. i was smsing aufar and he was like "oh i havent told you, have i?"
and i was like.. clueless.. and i said "told me what? that your long lost brother's from africa?"
and it's like.. it took me a while till i realised i asked that
coz it's like.. arrghh.. it's so stupid
why dont i EVER think before i say anything!?
it's just so sad.
stop laughing anelie it is SO not funny.
it's NOT.
you wanna know what's funny?
gay porn. LOL, tina!! hahaha. GAY porn.
that's funny.

*it's better to be hated for who you are, than to be loved for someone you're not*
- anonymous.